I feel like I'm dying.
And no, I'm not being all dramatic.
Today, my husband told me that he doesnt love me. All he feels is nothing when he looks at me.
Let me start back at the beginning, for those of you who missed what happened.
Back last April, my husbands father died. He took it really hard (we were on the way back to his house in Georgia when we got the call halfway there that he had passed). Like, he just shut down. Which, I expected to a degree. And then things got better for awhile, with the occational fight or 2, ya know, normal couple arguments.
About 3 weeks ago though...it seems like it got horrible. Every day, he comes home and is texting his friends, and up in the spare room watching TV and on his laptop. And when he does come out, I get snipped at. I cried all day, and when he got home, told him we had to talk.
That our marriage is in trouble.
After beating around the bush, he finally came out and said that he just feels numb. That when he looks at me, he feels nothing. That ever since his dad died he's felt nothing. And that he's not even sure he loved me as much as I loved him when we first got married.
...I kinda went into hystarics. Not intentionally...but i cried so hard I still have a slight headache.
I mean...how do you just stop loving someone...I feel...and I know this is going to sound cliche, but my heart friggen feels like it torn in two.
We sat down once I'd calmed down, and even though he said he doesnt want to go to counciling (bad experence when he was a kid I guess) he said we can still work at our marriage since I dont want a divorce.
I guess my question is...if you stop loving someone...is there a chance you could ever love them again?
Edit:
Thank you for the comments, everyone. I think he's depressed too, the more I try to press about therapy or counciling though, the more he pushes me away. Im going to try and give him space for a few days.
My mom and I were talking on the phone earlier, and we both agreed that I cant keep pushing. Im just going to push him away. I need to give him time to think, and let him come to me, because everytime I've gone to him to talk the last couple of times i've gotten my head ripped off.
And addressing the comment about what happend 3 weeks ago, I really have no idea, thats just when I started significantly noticing his behavior change towards me. XD sorry, dont think that like this just happend overnight.
So, I'm going to go cook my turkey, and tomorrow im going to get ahold of the chaplain over on pearl. Maybe...it not being concidered a "therapist" will let him open up. I'm hoping.
And if not for him, then for me.
