Ive just been reading the news online, a nd my morbid fascination of course drags me to the Pa "gym killer", George Sodini ......and I'm kind of dumbstruck. You know how the online world is& nbsp;- one article leads to you another and another and next thing I know I'm&nb; sp;reading his whole tragic blog.
Now, I'm not sure who of you have r ead it, and I don't want to post a& nbsp;link here, but it's not hard to fin d and nor are his videos. But, what bothers me about the wh ole thing is that I don't know how I feel about it. He just seems so familiar, like h e could be just anyone of us out th ere, but at the same time the sight ;of him makes my skin crawl beyond belie f. He certainly looks pretty normal to&nb; sp;me, not even bad-looking, but this creepy& nbsp;obsession for younger girls and nausea-induci ng self-pity, added to his sheer boringness&n; bsp;(seen his video tour of his house.zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz), well, I suppose that's just normal I guess too, isn't it?
I think that is the simple word I'm ;looking for.....scary. It's not him that's scary, it's h is normality that's scary. Or apparent normality. As a single-woman in and out of&n; bsp;the dating scene, he's NOT the kind of person I want to end up face-to-face& nbsp;with on a date after a brief chat&n; bsp;on-line. But there's a very good chance it could be another George.
Wow, I mean we all have our lonely moments (I defy anyone to admit they've never had them) and I remember once a&nb; sp;quote saying "the biggest disease facing t he western world today is loneliness" but&nbs; p;it almost seems like he glorified in h is loneliness. When I say I don't know how I feel about it, I don't know if I& nbsp;just feel sorry for the guy or thin k he deserved what he dished out to ;himself. He clearly was psychotic and saying&nb; sp;"plenty of people have a much worse l ife than he does and just get on wi th it" doesn't really wash when you have a pyschotic illness, but his vitriol an d hatred, racism and misogyny also make me think "one less freak out there to&nb; sp;worry about".
No matter how I feel, for sure there&nbs; p;are lots of people out there now readi ng what he wrote and realising how he&nb; sp;could be anyone of us, in your office , one of your "on-line" friends, that an ti-social guy who lives across the road from you. It's just a shame someone has to& nbsp;get so lonely they resort to such l engths for some kind of recognition.
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