042thedailyslogblog WEDNESDAY 18 MARCH – I am a person not a number, a statistic or someone or something to ridicule. I’m individual and not in denial of my addiction. I will carry it to my grave or ash jar. Can you name on positive anyone has ever said about an addict, addicts or addiction?! Any drug of choice, or sex and shopping. Bet you can’t. But are addicts, each and every one, bad people? They suffer like anyone suffers. There just a label that observers can easily place upon them. Are the critics any better because they don’t suffer from an addiction. Overgeneralisation, stereotyping, global labelling, polarised thinking is a sad fact in our world. Get off my back and out of my face. Wind your neck in and criticise yourself before you pick on someone else. We all have problems, there’s no such thing as perfection or the perfect person. So rehang the mirror and take a good bleeding look at YOU, not me. Addiction is an illness and without help you cannot escape its grip. Addicts who do land on Recovery Road are to be admired. Not idolised, but given recognition that they have and are trying to better themselves, their life for them and those around them. I’ve been travelling on this road so long, too long, just trying to find my way back home. The old me’s dead and gone, dead and gone. Don’t see anyone by my side, still no-one inside. Loneliness outside addiction. Night is calling, I am falling. Coming down, coming down, coming down. Looking for myself sober. So good till it goes bad. Looking for the you you once had, when it was good, I’m safe till it’s over. Why do I feel this party’s over. How do I feel this good sober?! Novel idea for an ashtray?! Clay bottom water tray for flower pot and the pot itself turned upside down on the tray, so the water hole at the bottom is at the top. Option to paint it funky colours or patterns. I’ve been diagnosed mad, but is that negative? NOOOOOOOO!!! 043thedailyslogblog THURSDAY 19 MARCH – I hear Lily Allen’s into older men. PHOAH, bleeding BBOONNUUSS!! She writes songs about her past men. Ten more bonus points. I’ve twenty and more trailer loads of issues I’d give her for FREE! If we were to get together. She’d have no time to dump me. Why would she want to anyway. I’m fun in my addiction and fun when I’m sober. A real story in the making on Recovery Road. Leaving that addiction behind and coping with my mental health. Or is it handling my madness. Cheeky blighter I is. Anyway, perfect material for the remainder of Lily’s career that would be me, and she wouldn’t have to go through countless relationships or slip ups to be there at the top. What I’d bring to the relationships, lyrics and a great bif smile and too many laughs. Hang on, you can’t have too many laughs! Does that make me prime Lily Allen material? Hope so. Hey Lily are you reading. It’s me, your future wealth and happiness. She’s fit and my kinda attitudinal fairer sex type of lady brunette. Phwoah baby girl, keep on with that wicked giggle. That’d keep me sober on its own I tell you. There’s always hope in life. And hooking up with Lily Allen is mine. Wonder if I’ll get a mention in her next interview. I’d probably collapse in shock. But there’s always hope, and fate’s a funny old game you can never win. Especially when you wake up from addiction and mental health negativity. Fail hooking up with Lily, there’s always the other hook on other side of the Atlantic. PINK!!!!!!, Alicia Moore. Give me mooooore. Grr, ten times more powerful than a lion that girl. What a fit, healthy voice of life and without the warts. What a sadness she’s single, but heh, the addiction to recovery boy is here and waiting to talk Alicia MOOOOOORE. Talking, squawking and surviving all that gets thrown at me. Pleasure is my new middle name and target for life. Just for today, I’m hunting the fairer sex, clean, serence and positive thinking. Why pain when pleasure abounds. Just for today.
Tags: Alcohol Addiction Recovery Mental Health Cross-addiction Dual-diagnosi
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