Think about it again... then stop and rethink it one more time... Waste is terrible - don't waste anything... especially time.  Do what make YOU the most happy.  Without preaching, without knowing the circumstances... just be happy with the choices, the people and the life you are living.  P.S.  And have a hell of a lotta fun too!!!

Those are some deep questions, and only he can answer that biggest of ones.

Good luck from me too

Most likely wasting your youth but, I know nothing of your situation. I sincerely hope all works out well!

Way